LoSt!

Why does it seem like the more u try to heal the farther you see yourself falling back. You never realize how much the pain you went through so long ago could still be haunting your adult life. The people you wanna be able to turn to and lean on are the last ones you can talk to. Even though I know there are people who have felt my pain in there own way i still feel like I'm all alone. I'm looking for a way to move to the next step move past the pain and fear but the fear of moving forward holds me back. I feel like the needle that is lost in the hay stack!

Never Safe

A girl was molested in Laguna Beach over the weekend and it made my heart just dropped. I sat here thinking everything I've gone through and far I've come and also how much more i have to overcome. She is at the beginning the confusion the hurt all the pain. My heart is sad for her. When you say a prayer tonight keep this girl in mind. Even in the safest place like orange county the worst can happen.

The Little Girl Inside

The exterior of a woman but yet the little girl inside wants to curl up and cry...so many wrong paths taken so many choices made... Reachin out for the love and affection sometimes hard to look at my own reflection...heart broken in two more ways than one sometimes the only answer seems to be at the end of the gun...I keep movin not for me but them....one more step one more try with each day that passes by I learn I grow but yet still people say ur old enough to know...know pain, know hurt, know lies these i know for its all im ever shown